starting fresh

December the thirty first. We may be saying goodbye to the last year and hello to a new one, starting fresh (as we say.) But the real question is, do we ever really start fresh? Dont we all end up making the same mistakes as we did last year? Eating to much and putting on weight, 'ill go on a diet in the new year' only to be indulging in to many takeaways by the end of February. Falling for idiotic guys over and over, 'ill never date a player again' only to end up chasing after another one who's strung you along. starting up smoking for the billionth time. Biting your nails down to the brim. Letting those old cups and plates rot in your room until anyone but you gives it a clean. Leaving all your work to the last minute. Hating people for no reason. Being a constant liar. C'mon we all have faults, things we want to change.. and we all wait till the clock strikes twelve on new years day to change them.. only to go running back to our old self a few weeks later. Starting fresh can only happen with 5 things.. 1. Fresh head- thinking differently, saying yes to things that you would normally say no too.. or in another case learning to say no!  2. Fresh surroundings- going somewhere you would never have normally thought of going, who knows you might even enjoy it, not to mention the new people you'l meet. 3. Fresh memories- throw away them old pictures of your ex boyfriend and erase those sad songs from your ipod, lets face it... no one likes a crier. 4. Fresh look- be risky, try something you haven't ever thought of wearing or even change your hair style. and 5... Dont forget to still be yourself, c'mon you cant totally leave the old you behind. Fresh start and a fresh year stick with what you truly want to change, it may be hard.. but if you want something that bad im sure you'l find a way to deal with the urges... Happy new year bloggers, hope your livers survive the evening!

Every word stuck in my head for a lifetime.

Okay so no family is perfect. I have learnt this with time. I don't get it, we all put a front on, making ourself out to be the perfect family. But within those 4 tall walls of what we call a home, there is no sign of perfection. We don't tell lies we just avoid the truth and hope for the best. A perfect family is in-existent in this world where media floods through our life's and technology makes the hardest things possible to the dumbest of creatures. You just have to wipe your tracks clean to make sure no one follows.
There is only so much you can take of someone and spending your entire life suffocating within those same surroundings can take its turn. okay so we know each other inside out, I know your motives and you know mine. We spit words at one another that do not mean a thing, because we know we will love each other tomorrow, and that's what we call a family.. isn't it?
Ill remember that one thing you said a week ago maybe it was a month ago.. maybe even a year I cant quite remember but those words stuck well. Those words are stuck in my head clearer than it was whispered yesterday, because I know in the moment it made sense to you, and now when my head has cleared I now fully understand too. Those words hurt now more than they did then and they will stick in my head for a lifetime. We will go on and love each other tomorrow, pretending those words didn't mean a thing. Is that okay with you?

It's been a while...

Time has past and things have changed. Enough of the childish fights and tantrums, hideous stairs and finally now these immature debates are over. A weight has been lifted of my shoulders and I can finally breathe. For all these years it feels as if all these tiny bickers have been leading up to this one point, and boom a huge catastrophe. But I have given it time and let things die down..It's been a while hasn't it. and.. well I miss you. Maybe I miss those childish fights because the time we had amongst them were times that I will never forget. We are older now, but im feeling younger than I ever had being the one to let a friendship like yours slip away.